February 2012
9 posts
Hell yeah, hell yeah, hell yeah.
Fuckin’ right.
Where are you going in life?
Not in your direction, that’s for sure. That’s too far back.
I could never hate someone I love. But I just don’t want to talk to you anymore. Instead of being a source of comfort and relief, you’re just stress and annoyance.
There will be no next time.
I can’t do this anymore. I’m not sure what you want from me, and the time that I give you is never enough and the words that I say are always forgotten.
Next|The Weeknd.
“She pop that pussy on a...
What do we want?
Amphetamines.
There's not enough hours in the day.
I managed to complete an outline of what I need to do to acquire the gpa that I desire. My psychology department continues to make things difficult for me. It’s already 4 in the morning and I still have the urge to make a few more lists. Hopefully, I’ll use tomorrow’s time to my advantage and do most of what needs to be done. I took too much leisure time out of my Sunday, now...
January 2012
12 posts
I hate when people blatantly post their biz on...
Even more than I hate cheesy, lovelorn quotes.
New Year's Resolutions.
Unlike the previous years, I’ve decided against making a list of New Year’s resolutions. It’s just another thing to stress me out; a list of things that I never fully get to. The list is bound to be forgotten for the year it was intended with a few peeks in between months. Instead, maybe I’ll make a mental list of things I just so happen to change and improve on from the...
2012.
A whole new year to fuck up, to accomplish, to prove something to myself. I don’t want to go into this year with too many expectations. Even if I did, I don’t think I could. At the moment, every aspect in my life is so up in the air. Last year was a good year. Not “good” in the sense that I can look back on the events of 2011 and think fondly, rather, it had depth. ...
It’s ignorant for people to want or assume that they have something that I’ve been struggling with for so long. The ignorance doesn’t stem from a lack of awareness rather not knowing what it means to struggle.
A struggle… that is what a disorder is. It’s not those fleeting moments you get where you desire something bad for you. Those thoughts and desires are...
“I’d tell all my friends,
But they’d never believe me.
They’d...”
– Subterranean Homesick Alien|Radiohead.
"And I be rhymin' like the man you gon' commit to,...
Not being able to have something you want. It’s a feeling everyone experiences interchangeable in the relation to “something” or “someone”. At some point, it was possible for me. Just out of reach, but with a bit of effort, I could have what I desired. Now, everything’s so fucked up that possibility is no longer there.
That's when the sad reality of it all hit me.
This song by Cat Power, I believe is featured in...
I’m left with a headache to remind me that what I had said and felt was real. This intense throbbing tells me of how numb I’ve been; how much I’ve been lying to myself.
December 2011
93 posts
Bulls game last night was bomb.
Now, to play against The Warriors; they don’t seem too intimidating.
I have about 40 minutes before it kicks in.
Better get to it.
“I’m in his favorite sundress.
Watching me get undressed
Take that body...”
– Video Games|Lana Del Rey.
My tumblr has gone to shit, so here begins my attempt to revive it. I’m not promising much when it comes to thoughtfulness. I’m going to try though. I have reached the point where I cannot stand to look back at my past posts just because of how shallowly worded they were. I think back to my very first tumblr and how I loved it so much. I wonder what changed. What made the words...
Garden State.
It’s a favourite of mine; a movie I can watch an endless number of times and not lose one ounce of fondness for it. That is the movie that I wish to watch right now, but it doesn’t feel appropriate right now. For some reason, it feels like a circumstance hasn’t been met, and I might have a clue as to what it is. Maybe I will remove this obstacle and begin...
Anonymous asked: I still follow your tumblr even though I lack one. I like reading your thoughts from time to time, forthright and lovely. Your mind works marvelously. I hope you already have not forgotten what we talked about.
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Goodbye.
I'm supposed to be getting ready...
but my arms hurt and this seems too important at the moment right now.
I want to clean up my tumblr because I’ve been posting a bunch of crap lately. I’ve been too impatient to think and write.
Stop posting in my ask box.
I never asked for your input, “k thanx”
You know who you are.
I can do so much more.
I’m anxious to start school again; I’m restless. I made a game plan for the year 2012. I’m going to try to follow through with it. I know what I need to do, and I know what’s expected of me, and I’m going to do it. I’m fully capable of accomplishing the goals I’ve set for myself, and I’m ready to surprise people who think I’ve been working...
Omfg, not everything's about you.
I really dislike people that don’t go to college or are poor high school students, and all they do is get drunk. You don’t deserve a break if you’re not doing shit. Get your shit together. I see so many people that I went to school with or know that stayed behind only to do nothing. I would be embarrassed by my lack of productivity.
Rx.
Too many thoughts. Too many feelings. Everything moved from my subconscious to the front of my mind. I have a migraine.
Everyone's sad.
I feel helpless. I don’t know why.
It seems as though I'm getting better.
I hope I’m not jinxing myself by haven typed the statement above, but I need to get better. I need to survive next semester. This winter break my sickness elevated again. But this time it was a bit stronger. I woke up with the body aches but my other symptoms seem to be lightening up a bit. I’m still lethargic; going to bed unreasonably early and waking up throughout the night...
I’ve been attempting to work out over winter break. I’m going to have to stay in shape this second semester because I have a feeling a lot of events that I’m going to want to attend will require less clothes. Today I slacked a bit, I did a quick workout: 30 minutes on the bike. But, in those thirty minutes I burned 350 calories and did 5miles. So I guess it’s okay? I...
I want....
Baskin Robbin’s Daiquiri Ice.
Johnny Rockets.
Giordarnos.
Really badly right now.